My Best Present



Indigo couldn’t wait this week so a day early here is her post:


I know it is silly to write to you on your own blog. I know it is even sillier to write to you on your own blog when I have to send it to you first. I know it is the silliest thing ever to write to you at all when we live together.

But, I need to write this because I am shy. Also I need to write this because I don’t want to tell you this.

It has been an amazing Christmas. I have been spoiled, cuddled, snuggled, cared for and surrounded by ribbons and sparkles for days.

It is just that I need something else from you.

I need you.

You know the regular you, the everyday you- you are the only thing I need now.

I don’t want more champagne.  I want your lips. I want you to kiss me hard, your stubble against my soft skin and my confused pleas to go ignored … or listened to.

I don’t want sweet kisses under the mistletoe, I want your hand in my hair pulling me towards you. I want to strain against you. I want to feel how strong you are.

I don’t want Christmas jumpers (although your jumper is sexy and cool – you are welcome.) I want your leather belt against my skin. No glitter on it, no prettiness, just dark leather against my pale skin and then my pink skin and then …well, you’ll decide.

I need us. I need to be told off, I need to be pulled down roughly over your knee and slapped until I kick out and beg you to stop. I need stern, I need the line back, your line, your way.

I need your hard hands. I need your silent threats that are always carried through. I need the pain and nervousness that defines me as yours.

After that, after you have used me, made me cry, made me red, sore and sorry for being such a difficult girl then, if you please, could you take me to a candlelit pub so we can talk about New Years?


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7 Responses to “My Best Present”

  1. 1 cindy2

    Lovely post. Also, I love the second image. Monochrome/sepia/charcoal to me is almost always better than color for spanking drawings.

  2. Being wanted for who you are, for what you do every day is as good as life gets. 🙂

  3. 🙂

  4. 4 MrJ

    Beautiful! Just deeply beautiful.

  5. 5 Kia

    Indigo, I hope that you receive this present you desire most. Then again, thinking of how life must work at Castle Black, I imagine you may already have.

  6. Thank you for sharing this earnest request. To ask for sternness is among the hardest thing to do. To confess the need for it and perhaps, the hardest of all, to follow through. Because when you have asked for it, there is no taking it back, there is no refusing or resisting which is more tolerable if the idea was solely his. Just to take it as well as possible and be grateful afterwards, even trough the tears and the sting. I hope it was as great as you are.

  7. 7 DJ

    Thanks everyone – Indigo reads with eager interest.

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